Sunday, June 11, 2017

Tulips on the Table

A few months ago it became clear to me that this blog was meant as a place for others to come and read. But I didn't know exactly what they were supposed to be coming to.

What could I do that was true to myself and also lived up to the calling God has for this space on the internet?

Was I supposed to be some sort of motivational figure? 
Was there something unique about our family that could be highlighted?
What exactly was it that the Lord wanted people to see here?

I wasn't sure what to do, and different scenarios, pros, cons, and trajectories played over in my mind. 

I tried on motivational figure but it didn't fit quite right. While I do like to look for the positive, I can't say that I consistently search for it everyday. I can't even motivate myself sometimes! ;) A bubbily, always optimistic person would be a facade, and not true to my nature.

I tried on family to pattern your life after and that one didn't fit either. I know there's no such thing as a 'perfect family' but I just couldn't get over the idea of somebody asking me for parenting advice. I certainly do try hard as a parent and I have some lofty ideals, but I fail more times than I get it right, at least at this point in my progression. I'm no parenting expert.

I tried on photographer, one who inspires through images, but I just don't love the craft enough. Photography definitely falls in 'hobby' category for me, and to make this an 'inspired by photos'-type place would be a lot of work in my mind. And that clued me in to it bringing me more anxiety than joy.

I tried on writer and realized I am not an author, in the strict definition of the word. I don't love flowery prose, neither do I have a knack for it. I love to write, simply because it causes me to slow down, to reflect and learn.

It turns out, when you strike out on all of those in the blogging world, you only have one more thing left to be: 


Ha! As I settled upon this, I remembered a beautiful quote, "Preach the Gospel at all times, and if necessary, use words."

When I thought about what I really, really want in life, it's to make a big impact in somebody's life for the better, to have someone actually change how they live, or their perspective, through my influence. 

And when I think back on the people who have done that for me, it's been from their life---who they are--the way they live and not some flowery prose, inspirational list, or collection of pretty pictures.

So I just decided to share life, to share me.

To those of you who've read my blog for a long time, I don't imagine you will notice much difference. I'll still write long form posts about my thoughts, and lots of posts about my family. But I needed to make a mental shift for myself, so I've changed the name of my blog.

The name is "Tulips on the Table." The metaphor for me is about ordinary. A vase of tulips on your kitchen table. I'll often pick up grocery store flowers and set them in a vase on the kitchen table. They may not be extraordinary, but they certainly are beautiful. And if you were too busy, you might just miss how much beauty they add to your life.

That's what I want this space to be-- ordinary, but happy. Celebrating the good in life, the blessings you might just miss if you didn't slow down and recognize what is right in front of you. Celebrating the good you learn from the hard things. And celebrating the things I learn that inspire me to be better in my ordinary life.

I believe God wants this to be an ordinary space, not because ordinary goes viral (because it doesn't), but because it's true to who I am and the message I feel deep in my bones. You don't have to be a star to be happy. You can celebrate tulips on the kitchen table.

P.S.- If you following along on Instagram or Facebook, my blog will still show up in your newsfeed. But if you get to my blog directly, I will be changing the url to in the near future, so here's your heads up.


  1. Oh, how I can relate! For the past couple of weeks, I have been away from my blog to spend time with my family, which has caused me to rethink my whole approach...again...for the one millionth time. I, too, feel like blogging is more of a calling than a hobby, but I struggle (with a capital S) to figure out exactly what I am supposed to be doing with my online space. I'm still trying to figure it out, but I love your approach to ordinary. Ordinary is where life is lived. Ordinary is extraordinary! Thank you for sharing, and best of luck with your new focus.

    1. So glad to be in the trenches with you on this, Lynnette! Thanks as always for your comments that I learn so much from.

  2. You are certainly not ordinary and I am going to buy flowers every week when I go shopping from now on. I love you, Mom

  3. It's perfect! Thank you for writing.