Wednesday, July 17, 2019

Going Private

As my kids get older, I'm less and less interested in everyone on the internet having access to every picture of my kids I have ever taken. Cheyenne googled her name the other day and this blog was a top hit. Some kids can be so mean these days, and all you need is one bad picture of somebody to make their life miserable. So to imagine a bully having all these pictures so easily accessed is not something I want for the future.

I tried keeping a 'private' blog and a 'public' blog, but it's so much work doing both. This blog IS my picture storage and organization, so to do something different after all these years would be a major undertaking. So after much deliberation I've decided to make my blog private indefinitely.

If you'd like to keep reading, please send me your email address so I can give you access! You can either leave it in a comment or email me directly ashley(dot)dilsaver(at)gmail(dot)com

Please don't feel embarrassed to ask for access! I read strangers blogs, friends-I-don't-know-very-well's blogs, people-I-haven't-talked-to-in-years' blogs, so it would not weird me out at all if you asked for access to keep reading!

If something I have written is helpful to you (or you think would be helpful to someone else), it is always ok with me if you wanted to share that with others, regardless of the fact that my blog is private.

Alternatively, I will keep posting the text of my 'short' blogs on Instagram (you can ask to be my friend there, too!) and my blog's Facebook page, as well as occasional update photos in those places as well, so if you are an occasional reader you won't miss much!

I will make my blog private on August 1st. So please let me know your email by then!

I've added a follow by email button at the bottom of my blog if that is a convenient way for you to find out when I've posted.

Family Pictures 2019

Road Trip Part 2-- Idaho and Utah

Monday, July 15, 2019

His Loneliest Days

I wanted to share a little bit about the last days of Jesus' life and some of the things I learned.

Ben and I had a wonderful experience being able to share with our kids what the last week of Jesus' life was like, and the deep feelings we have for him because of all He experienced there. It was good to see it through the eyes of a child, to explain it in simple terms, with simple examples that they would understand, just all the hardship He experienced. 

June Days

Sunday, July 14, 2019

People I love

A book Cheyenne had to write for school. It was so darling I wanted to remember it always. And she described our family at this stage pretty accurately too!

Sunday, June 23, 2019

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Tuesday, June 18, 2019

Willing to Submit

So this has been a crazy season in my life. Having five kids has been totally overwhelming me.
*sidenote. I hate writing posts like this because I am so richly blessed. There are SO many people that have it worse off than me. It's hard to imagine someone complaining who has five beautiful kids, a loving husband, a house for their family, running water, all the things. I know so many who suffer in major, life-changing ways. But I need to record these feelings, and these are the experiences that have been given to me.

Thursday, June 13, 2019

Pretty sure it will be spring in heaven

Back in May I went for a walk in my favorite park at the height of spring. We live in a small(ish) town, and sometimes I have the park to myself. The blossoms danced prettily in the gusts of wind, the sun played peek-a-boo with the petals as I snapped picture after picture, trying to capture this beautiful, beautiful world and the euphoria I felt. I'm pretty sure it will be spring in heaven.

Where to look in times of trouble

It used to be I would look in the wrong place when I was discouraged and needed answers. When I encountered a day that shook me, a day where I wondered what I was doing wrong as a mother or how I could be inspired to be different, I would read blogs or instagram, searching for something I could hold on to. Someone who had 'figured it out' that would help me figure my life out too.

Wednesday, June 12, 2019

Where Negative Thoughts Come From

Negative thoughts come from Satan. They are not created in your own mind.

Monday, May 20, 2019

April Days

All dressed up for Easter Sunday!

Friday, May 3, 2019

Is it your dream or is it pride?

I used to think that I wanted to write a book or I wanted to have a widely read blog. I thought that was my dream. But what I've realized over time is that that "dream" was a manifestation of my own pride. I wanted to be well-liked and considered "right" or smart. I feel called to blog, so I thought, "This will help me accomplish my dream! The Lord is helping me realize this 'dream' of mine."

Saying Yes to Help

Life is hard. Do you feel that way? I'd have to say it took me becoming a mother to really understand how much I could use and needed help from others. In our society, though, people who are strong, people who can do it all by themselves, people who don't "need" anyone else are celebrated and praised.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

The cosmos and a tiny person

It's amazing to me how babies grow.

Monday, April 15, 2019

Kid Spacing

The spacing between kids is something I think about a lot and I wanted my thoughts recorded here.

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

So grateful

It's a divine way to learn gratitude when you experience the loss of something. After this pregnancy, I find I am so grateful for the things I can once again do that I couldn't do while I was pregnant.

March Days

Sunday, April 7, 2019

Like coming home

There's so much peace and clarity that comes with General Conference. It feels like coming home. People speak softly and with tenderness. They talk about the best in people, and the hope available in Jesus Christ. Problems I have in parenting sometimes seem insurmountable when I look at them through the answers available from worldly sources. But during conference, I receive sudden insights while people are talking, providing solutions to my problems, or hear things that will help me with the different trials I am facing. Somehow, after conference it feels like everything is going to be ok. It feels like love there. It feels like coming home.

Friday, March 8, 2019

Wednesday, March 6, 2019

Entering the world

I've been thinking lately as I've neared the end of this pregnancy how service is built-in in the way we enter this world.

Friday, January 25, 2019


Old Man Winter came to visit us

Thursday, January 10, 2019

Lasting Impressions from 2018 #3: What is Truth?

My last deep impression I wanted to share from 2018 was a talk by Elder Christofferson entitled "Truth Endures."

Tuesday, January 8, 2019

Monday, January 7, 2019

Lasting Impressions from 2018: #2 Laser-focused Trials

As I was reflecting on 2018, I wanted a record some of the things that left a lasting impression on me, things I have thought about long after I first read or heard them. This one involves a talk from Elder Johnson about trials that seem laser-focused to our weaknesses.

Sunday, January 6, 2019

Lasting Impressions from 2018: #1 Our Relationship with Christ

As I was reflecting on 2018, I wanted a record some of the things that left a lasting impression on me, things I have thought about long after I first read or heard them. This one involves something I read in the Church News regarding each individual's potential for a relationship with Christ.