Saturday, January 24, 2015

The Darkest Night Will End

I'm in a dark hole. I'm suffocating in school work and I still have trouble enjoying being home. I'm discouraged? Yeah, I'm discouraged. Sometimes I feel like it would be easier if I really was in a deep,dark hole. It's just the opposite. I've got three, beautiful kids. A loving and supportive spouse. And I'm learning and growing at school. What's got me down?

I'm not unusual, I know. And truth be told, I've been in this hole before. We all have. All humans get discouraged from time to time. It's knowing the sun will rise that keeps us from staying down here.

I know the sun will rise. I've seen it happen before. Winter is not always kind to me, but spring will come. To my children, if you ever find yourself in this hole of discouragement, know it's okay. You're not broken and God feels your pain. Last night when I was crying in my bed, I knew that Jesus Christ was crying with me. He, of all people, knows how hard it is to be mortal sometimes. Don't give up. I'm not going to. Not on you kids, not on what I've been asked to do, not on myself.

What is discouragement for if not to help us better understand and love one another? I share my discouragement so that you know that you are not alone. Let's weather these storms together.


  1. This comment is on the later side, so I'm sorry I didn't write sooner, but just know I am hoping and praying for you! Sorry things are hard right now! Being a working/school-going mom is not easy, and you are doing a great job! Your words have been encouraging to me many times before!

    1. Thank you Lorren. You are so kind to write! It's so comforting to have people to blaze this trail with. I am feeling better. Thanks for thinking of me.