Tulips on the Table

So this has been a crazy season in my life. Having five kids has been totally overwhelming me.
*sidenote. I hate writing posts like this because I am so richly blessed. There are SO many people that have it worse off than me. It's hard to imagine someone complaining who has five beautiful kids, a loving husband, a house for their family, running water, all the things. I know so many who suffer in major, life-changing ways. But I need to record these feelings, and these are the experiences that have been given to me.

Back in May I went for a walk in my favorite park at the height of spring. We live in a small(ish) town, and sometimes I have the park to myself. The blossoms danced prettily in the gusts of wind, the sun played peek-a-boo with the petals as I snapped picture after picture, trying to capture this beautiful, beautiful world and the euphoria I felt. I'm pretty sure it will be spring in heaven.

It's amazing to me how babies grow.

The spacing between kids is something I think about a lot and I wanted my thoughts recorded here.